Triangulation in Primary Relationships VS Source-Integration

Triangulation.

In relationships.

Ever experience it?

It's as subtle as answering the phone and hearing your mom say, "your dad wanted me to call you and find out..." When you know for a fact, your mom is asking.

It can be as obvious and alarming as someone spreading divisive lies about another to you, and you to another, in attempts to conquer the power of a triad, and ensure separation among its parts, and its dependence on the liar.

Maybe your dad did that with you and your siblings and you still believe his lies and each sibling thinks he favors themselves. No wonder you can't stand each other. It was designed that way.

I've be going through something I'm still struggling to stomach. It involves a triangle. To watch someone I love fall for it, while I know all I can do is back out of it to not feel inclined to counteract it, I feel as if I'm abandoning her to it if I let this happen without stopping it. But...she's been forced to choose sides, and...she's chosen.

Bird. Hit. Window.

The insomnia.

Oh, the insomnia.

For hours a night, I've journaled in the little nook I've created for myself between my toilet and my bathtub while my house pipes gurgle the same as everyone in my family's sleeping stomachs.

Apparently last night my son saw me meditating for over an hour next to my bed in the dark: something I don't at all remember doing, and 100% don't believe I did but I also don't doubt he saw it, but he swears I was. He saw me twice.

This isn't the first time my children have swore collectively they all saw me be somewhere I wasn't.

My energy system is really working out how to calibrate to this one. Apparently even my soul requires being upright for it while my body is resting.

The irony is, I keep having this feeling that if I wasn't "this" level of awake as a person, this would be a lot easier. This feeling of "I just want to go to sleep for a few years so I don't have to see this..." keeps coming up, and it's WAKING ME UP AT NIGHT.

So then I have a biology to match that's going..."I just want to go to sleep..."

But I can't.

This one won't let me. It keeps prying my eyes open and making me stare.

Each night after hours of cuddling with my bathroom floor alone in the creepily lit low tone of my overhead light, I get an impression that tells me enough is enough...and I go back to bed.

This morning, I want to give you the impression that soothed me if you're a product of a bunch of triangulation, and can at any given moment, look at almost all of your relationships not as two connected dots, but as three, with one other person often involved in the division but apparent union of you and another, I offer you this...

Imagine the triangles in your primary relationships.

First imagine the diad, you and another.

Then think of who immediately comes to mind when you pull together you and that other in energy.

If someone else show's up, you might be in a triangle. Though triangles are strong, they're made for the avoidance of intimacy somehow.

Since my mind usually doesn't think in triangles but in circles, I saw huge clear circular bubbles as the energy field demonstrated at three points, and lines connecting them. It was interesting how many geometric triangles built onto each other, relationship after relationship.

In each place where I pulled in a primary relationship (even your worst feeling ones you wish weren't primary) and someone else came in strongly with it, I put the Holy Spirit in the other bubble, instead of the "other" that was pulled in with them.

If you can see triangulation in your mind in this way, you can change triangulation in your mind this way.

And hopefully...the inner, changes the outer...in no time.

Put your chosen spiritual mentor, or Creator itself, or the angels or Holy Spirit, as the third face on any triangulation you can think of in your mind.

Then rotate with all people in the triangle.

You're inviting Divine Love into the system, rather than the grid lock of manipulation holding it together.

When we can surrender, we learn to receive. Doing this...invites both. And makes us a clearer vessel for transmutation and manifestation.

My impression and prayer is...working with this for a bit, will ease the energetics in hopes of at least learning to accept the reality that lands.

I hope the same is true for you if you experience tension in primary relationships and choose to explore this.

Let's offer our relationships to Source. From there, Source can be the one offering relationships to us, that are directed by divinity, not by one very polarizing ego.

This is where my faith lies.

All my love,

Stac